To my friends: if you haven’t heard by now, let me tell you that I am newly single.Breaking up was one of the most difficult decisions I’ve had to make, and honestly, I still have my doubts about it. I know some people will sneer and say, “Hey, you’re the one who broke up with him. Deal with it.” Those people can kindly shove a stick up their ass. Relationships are not as simple as “If you love him, you should be together!” That naïve shit doesn’t fly with me anymore. There are so many other factors in dating, other than love. …
The second season of Girlsshowed Shoshanna, a bright, driven, and lively young woman, breaking up with the perpetually angry and cynical Ray. Their match was unlikely but entertaining, to say the least, because their different personalities made it so interesting to watch.
The main reason why Shosh broke up with Ray is his personality is far too grim. He has no ambition, he is always angry, and she feels he is holding her back from being a “fully formed human”. All valid and acceptable reasons. But the thing is, she loves him, “to the ends of the world and back, so much”.
Unfortunately, I didn’t carry that self-esteem to my adulthood. Sometimes, I catch myself thinking how awful I am: a fat, ugly, mean-spirited, and boring person who is useless at everything. It’s gotten better over time, but loving myself is still a daily battle, one that I lose more often than I want to admit.
In my previous entry, I mentioned how I fell ill in my last day in Caleruega. I had a high fever and chills that lasted for three days. When I went to the doctor, she diagnosed me with urinary tract infection or UTI, and told me to avoid the following: