I almost flaked on plans to have a wonderful night out

I almost flaked on plans to have a wonderful night out

When I’m in a depressive slump, I tend to shut myself off from people. My psychiatrist told me that I should follow through with plans, regardless of how I feel on that day. He said that it would help me feel better.

He understood that it takes more energy for a depressive person to do this, but he stressed the point that isolating myself and lying prone in bed is not helpful, and only serves to reinforce my loneliness.

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REVIEW: L’Oreal x Balmain Lipstick Collection

REVIEW: L’Oreal x Balmain Lipstick Collection

In September 2017, L’Oreal launched a lipstick line in collaboration with fashion brand Balmain. So I’m pretty late to the game on this review, because you know, life gets in the way.

Anyhow, I bought these lipsticks mainly because it was in collaboration with Balmain—it might be the closest I can get to buying makeup from a luxury brand, haha.

I purchased the shades Domination and Power for PHP499 each.

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Want to customize your phone? Try Total Launcher

Want to customize your phone? Try Total Launcher

A month ago, when I was seriously considering buying the iPhone XS Max, Trish tagged me in a Tweet. She posted a screen recording of her Android phone with a launcher installed. She had all kinds of shortcuts to trigger different functions, and she pressed me to try it.

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Not fully convinced, I installed one for myself, and IT CHANGED MY LIFE. Android launchers are the best thing that has happened to me tech-wise in a long time.

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Leaning towards being childfree

Leaning towards being childfree

One night, Mama and I were chatting over coffee, and I was rattling off the things I didn’t like about kids. When she asked if I plan on giving her grandchildren, I replied, “I don’t know.”

Thankfully, she said that she wasn’t too keen on being a lola anyway. I joked that she should already consider Pawky her grandchild, since he is basically my son.


I’ve been giving this a lot of thought over the past three years, and it’s about time I wrote about it: I’m seriously thinking about going childfree.

I’ve taken a lot of factors into consideration.

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A very dangerous state of mind

A very dangerous state of mind

I mentioned in a previous blog post that I was back on meds because I was backsliding into a depressive state. Last weekend, I had one of my worst suicidal episodes yet. I wanted to kill myself.

It was 3am on Saturday. I was laying in bed, chilling with Youtube videos, when without warning, I felt terrible. No trigger whatsoever—I just suddenly felt that everything was pointless. That I’m a worthless loser who will never amount to anything, who will always be a burden to my loved ones.

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I started sobbing, tears and snot running down my face. As soon as I wiped them away, they started anew. It went on like that until 6am.

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