I started working out!

Last January, I made a life-changing decision: I signed up for a membership at Gold’s Gym, and sessions with a personal trainer.

The first few sessions were exhausting, to say the least. Every muscle in my body ached, and I was walking so stiffly that even getting out of a car sent waves of pain screaming down my legs. 

Still, I persevered. As of writing, I’ve lost 4 pounds. Slow progress, but progress nonetheless. With every session, I feel myself getting stronger, able to do the exercises without getting too out of breath.

I be up in the gym just working on my fitness / He’s my witness (oh, wee)

Fergalicious, Fergie. 2006

Heck, I even signed up for one of those calorie-counting diet delivery meals (shoutout to Fit and Lean—check out their Facebook Page!). I started being more conscious of what I ate, cutting back on rice and actively avoiding buying a liter of cookies and cream ice cream that I can eat in one sitting. You guys, I even started eating broccoli. Broccoli. I don’t know who I am anymore.

Kidding aside, there are a few reasons for this change.

Physical Health

I was happy with my weight—until I wasn’t. It never really bothered me until now, especially since I have a ton of clothes that don’t fit me anymore. I want to be able to join runs again, and I want to be able to wear my old clothes that are now too tight.

All bullshit modesty aside, I think I’m pretty. But I need to lose several pounds to feel even more beautiful.

Mental Health

Everyone from my mom to my therapists tell me that exercise will help boost my mood. It was hard for me to get up off my depressive ass and actually do it, but I’ve decided to commit. I spent quite a bit of money on the membership fee and the 40 sessions with a personal trainer (paid in advance, so I have no reason to back out).

effect of exercise on mental health
From the Twitter account of BelievePerform

And you know what? Everyone was right about what exercise can do to help my mental state. I didn’t have the energy to ruminate on the meaninglessness of existence when my trainer is in my face, telling me to do 100 squats and 100 planks. The ache of my thighs bring quiet to my mind.

Personal Growth

Here’s the thing: I hate having to get up to go to the gym, but I love how I feel after a good workout. It instills in me the discipline to go even when I don’t feel like it. Plus, since I don’t see immediate results, it helps keep at bay my craving for instant gratification.

Exercising pushes me to my physical and mental limits, and if you’ve been around this blog for a while, you know I’m all about personal growth. This is one of the most positive changes I have made in my life, and I’m happy I took the jump.

Ela Kaimo

Ela is a twentysomething who is constantly getting stuck in self-destructive behavior and bouts of low self-esteem. She struggles with depression and writes to relieve herself of her feelings. Sometimes she even blogs about other things like makeup and positivity. One of her pieces was published in the Inquirer Young Blood in October 2017. She likes cats, dogs, and sometimes even people.


  1. Exercise really helps with our mental states. When I’m stressed or sad, I always do cardio to get out of my funk. 😛 I’m so happy that you’re putting your health first and going out of your comfort zone! Good luck! <3

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